A few picnic pictures...

It was such a beautiful day at the lake and my friend Seth entertained us by his Vietnam's Next Top Model posing....although he is from Laos...

Going into a food coma after too many burgers and hotdogs...

The feeding of the strawberries...sort of...

Leon feeding the bloodthirsty geese that kept biting everyone. I really dislike birds...

Yay for the birthday boy=^^=

Eventually they got me to feed the damn birds, ugh.

After having had to resend my photos that I had made too big now I find out my school doesn't automatically put the seal on the transcripts...damnit. So now I have to head to school before work and try to get seals on the extra transcript I had ordered. Hopefully it doesn't take very long because I have to work at 5pm and I need to go ahead and ship it to Korea so my visa can finally be processed and I can plan when I can visit the Korean Embassy. Thankfully next week my work hours have increased. It also helped that one coworker asked if I could work one of her shifts(hell yes!) so I get another 5hrs added onto the mix. Thank gahd...

...-silence-...

So unfortunately I have been sick for the past...week or so I guess. I still had a great weekend though. It was the bf's birthday Saturday so my friend and I incorporated his birthday celebration into our picnic. The look on his face when we picked out cute candles that spelled HAPPY BIRTHDAY was hilarious. He wanted to go home and sleep for his birthday...ha! No can do buddy. So we picnic-ed all day with friend, got attacked by blood thirsty geese after my buns and scared small children. So awesome. I'll hopefully have pics up soon. My digital camera has crapped out after 3 years of loyal service so now I may have to get a new one...sometime.

My paperwork made it to the office in Korea, only problem is that my pictures I sent were too big so now I have to go and get new passport sized ones done. Going to go get that done today. Also deep in the process of throwing away things I have collected that I know I don't need to keep. It has been a long going process.

One thing that is also continuing to bother me is my lack of income. Nothing has panned out from my temp job search and my hours at work have yet to pick up. Another shitty 4.5hr week. The only good(bad?) thing is that the days seem to be passing relatively quickly. Then again I have been doped up on tussin, advil and other such pain reliever things so I thought today was Monday....not so much. Hopefully today I can get out and about and get things done without killing my gas too much. Lord knows I don't make enough to fill it back up...

Waiting Game

Work this week thankfully went by rather quickly. I was only supposed to be getting 4.5hrs of work (damnit) but a coworker got really sick and was out so I filled in. I needed the money big time so it was all good. But I really just feel like I'm in this waiting process. I like the job I do...scratch that, I like my coworkers, the products and a few of the loyal customers we have. Everyone else can jump off a bridge. But I just want to finish and start my new job. The feelings won't make me perform any worse at my job but it is just a general feeling of "What the hell am i still doing here?" But I did just mail my paperwork which should be at CDI by next Monday and then sometime in the next 3 weeks i will be heading to the Korean Consulate in Atlanta to get my visa.

I've barely gotten a start on the whole getting rid of stuff thing. I need to do better about that fairly soon. I'm just kind of sentimental about random junk I have collected over the years. Something about being afraid to fully let go of the past and such. Meh, gotta let that stuffs go byebye for the most part. Right now it is all just sitting in various closets and under beds.

Other than working a little and trying to clean not much has been going on. Thinking too much about everything as usual. Thought I was starting to get sick but I think I just wasn't drinking enough water. Cooked dinner for my boyfriend, Leon, last night then went bowling for a little. Planning a picnic tomorrow so trying to figure out what food I need to and can afford to buy as well as who all is coming. I'm working on not thinking/worrying as much as I have been. It's good to have some sort of plan about things but many times I just do pointless worrying about anything and everything. I have made an effort to cease with worrying that does nothing but give me a headache.

It's a beautiful day so I should go take advantage of that for a while...

Amongst pain there can also be great joy...

" My dear baby, if you can survive, please remember mom loves you."

(click the link above)

Sometimes there are things that make you stop and realize that people are so beautiful. Amidst all the hate and suffering in the world there is still selflessness and love.

So I am finally back from the fun filled week of gambling with my mom. Amazingly it turned into a free weekend with the amount of money we actually won back. It wasn't extremely impressive but it was enough to pay back the trip. Now I am back home and on the job hunt again for a full-time day job.

I also finally got my transcripts in from Vandy. I had a slight freak out attack when my mom said she almost opened them (geezus) but then I saw she barely even picked at it. I am so damn gullible sometimes. My mom and boyfriend get me every damn time...but anyhoo, now I can finally send my paperwork to Korea. I'm slightly iffy about sending my original diploma just because it took so long and so much money to get it but after asking around I'm a little placated. Gotta have some kind of faith.

With slightly less than 2months before I leave I am really trying to crack down and get rid of items I don't need. I need to even more because I barely have anywhere to store them at my mom's house now. I suppose that is what I will do all today since yesterday I did nothing but relax with Leon. It was such a beautiful day so we spent most of it walking around the lake, enjoying the breeze and trying to skip stones. Leon always says that I am so loved...which meant I got bit by a dozen mosquito...iiiiiitchy! But at least it was a great day...And I also have pictures from graduation and my graduation dinner with friends and family. I am glad to be done but now boredom is setting in=^^=Not sure who got a pic of me as I walked back to my seat. It was like an ambush of cameras and parents...

Me and my two moms, Mama Lily on the left and my bio Mom on the right. I love them both and am glad they get along...sometimes TOO well...My dad and mama and I.Two of the most important men in my life, and they seem to get along, even better!Dinner at Shogun Hibachi grill...sooooo good. And he "flirted" with my cousin, lol. Two of my best friends who i will miss dearly also came to the dinner. I was so glad that they could meet my family again and enjoy the day=^^=

Good-bye to yesterday...

Good-bye Vanderbilt! Good-bye elevators that got stuck with me in them 4 times. Good-bye quizno in the basement making it impossible for me to not get fat. Good-bye for now exams and homework. And unfortunately good-bye for now friends I hold near and dear. But hello again to the future and all of the changes that come with it. I am now gathering all of the paperwork I need to ship to Korea, including the $140,000 paper that is my diploma.

Thankfully I am heading on a trip Tuesday to go gambling with my mom and spa it up for a few days before going back to the grind and saving up money for Korea. Happy Mother's Day to all of the mothers out there!

That much closer to a sad good-bye...

Hmmm...just now realizing how much I truly will miss this place...good-bye to the place that has been my home for these past 4 years. Hello to a future I have yet to meet. I'm apprehensive as hell but I'm excited too. Hopefully more good than bad is headed my way.
REST WHEN YOU DIE!!!

Wazzat?!

I have no idea what that title means but the non-word has been floating around in my head for hours. After 4 hours of driving around downtown with its damn retarded one-way streets I finally managed to complete all three steps towards obtaining my apostille and could collapse onto my couch with exhaustion. It was damn hot outside and all I wanted was the coolness of my AC. I have been working inside for waaaay too long. I've gotten too spoiled by my work environment...

4 Days to go

Things have been crazy for the past few days. I thankfully passed all my exams including Japanese which usually screws me over. Now I'm in the annoying process of packing everything to move back with my mom for the next few months to save money for Korea. I still haven't gotten my background check apostilled. I'm searching for wherever they moved the building. I need to get off the couch and get moving though. I also need to figure out what days I am working this week. My hours still haven't recovered at work. No idea how I am going to save any money when my paycheck will only cover filling my gas tank. Second job here I come.

In other news I have been trying to get rid of things that I a) don't need and b) can't take with me eventually. I don't think I will have my mom send me anything too big so I hope to sell a tv, microwave and mini fridge to get a few more dollars saved up. Thankfully my boyfriend found cheaper airline tickets than I had previously been finding. I need to stop playing bad little packrat and seriously get rid of or store alot of things I know I don't need...

...so hard.